PEBBLES OF INSPIRATION

I've just recently noticed God is throwing pebbles at me.  They say, he first whispers, and if you don't listen, he will begin to shout, if that doesn't work, he will hit you with a brick!  I have recently had a brick thrown at my head regarding our finances. 

Today, I've been catching little pebbles:
"Ultimately - YOU have to insist on your own Happiness"  Cee Lo
"Go back to the Happiest moment in your life - Go back to that one day when you thought it couldn't get any better!"  Extreme makeover Weight Loss Edition.
"Put yourself in that moment and regain that hope for the future, the joy for the now, the dreams of how your life has just begun - Go there and grab it and don't let go!  Because this is the first day of the new WAY! "  me
My moment is on my wedding day when my soon-to-be husband is walking down the isle looking at me with the biggest smile on his face, glowing with the same love that I returned to him. This was one of the few times in my life when I knew I was doing the best right thing for me, and it felt overwhelming and Awesome.  I never expected to find a "Forever Man", but I did, because I deserve him, and he deserves me!

For those who have ever dealt with greif or Illness

For those of you who know me, you know one of my issues is battling this unending grief over the death of my mother 1-1/2 years ago.   I know I have to deal with my feelings (ALL OF THEM) to achieve the ultimate Vision Quest I'm looking for.  If any of you have ever lost a loved one to sickness or have watched them battle it out with illness, cancer, addiction, emphyzema or anything else, you have to watch this video.  It is so relateable to my feelings.  It is put to the music of Cold Play, the song is FIX YOU.  Check it out and tell me how it makes you feel. 
julie

http://youtu.be/xnguqsMQmg4

PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION

Well, I hoped to have a pic of my newly clean kitchen on here, but I'm not quite there yet.  I have made some progress in the kitchen, and also alot of progress in the bedroom.  My biggest priority this week, is getting check stubs, bank statements, tax returns, etc together for the attorneys.  I'll have to post more on that at a later date.  Just can't put all the legal stuff up yet. 

Unfortunately, this gathering of paperwork, is an issue, due to my disorganization, which stops now!

I have also started another tool today.  I am only allowing myself to talk positively about myself - to myself and others.  No more calling myself a cow or a dumbass or a bitch.  Totally counterproductive thinking does not contribute to the final goal of Life Fulfillment.

If you like what you are reading here, please tell your friends to join (follow) me on my quest.
Check back tomorrow for more progress, more tips & tricks and whatever else spills out of my mind onto this page:)
julie

Slapped with the Truth

When you live in it everyday, you - or should I say "I tend to overlook alot of the crap that surrounds me".  In looking at the pictures I have taken of my house, I have found there is no way to overlook the truth when its staring you in the face.  Here for instance is my kitchen - and it has suddenly become an item on the top 3 things to knock out today.

I am also trying a little trick, my friend Debbie, suggested.  Everytime I leave a room, I will take no less than 5 items out with me that do not belong and put them in their proper place.

I feel like by putting all my "BIZNIZ" out here, I will be held accountable not only to this blog, but also to you people out there and my followers.  Thanks for joining!  Check back this evening for a new pic of my kitchen and to see the rest of my activities.
Julie

The Goals

The goals of this blog (pick the ones you want or add your own):
1.   Get Healthy - lower cholestoral, blood pressure, and weight by 30 lbs
2.   Excercise regularly 5 days per week
3.   Get off of all medication except for vitamins and birth control
4.   Organize every room in my house and be able to lay my hands on whatever it is I
      need  immediately, knowing its exact location.
5.   Cook healthy tasty meals for my family
6.   Make money from writing
7.   Most of all find peace and serenity within myself
8.   Stop my head from spinning and eliminate 99% of the stress from my life
9.   Eliminate toxic friendships from my life and open myself up to positive people and experiences
10. Be & stay DEBT FREE
11. Move to Oregon
12. Surround myself with beauty
13. Increase my income, so I can live comfortably and travel if I want to
14. Be a non-smoker

WHERE AM I NOW?

What I hope to express initially through this blog is THE TRUTH.  Until we face the truth, we are living in denial, living a lie, and much of what we think we are hiding is already obvious to the people around us. 

I am 47 years old, weighing in at 180 lbs.  I am a recovering addict with 16 plus years in recovery.  My house looks like I'm trying out for Hoarders, and falling just short of getting on the air.  There is not a room in my house that is not filled with stuff, not littered with piles of clothes, papers, and even some trash.  I sell on ebay under the ID Julsberu, so there is also "inventory" abounding in all the rooms.  My house is a 2500 sft single story brick home.  I live here with my husband who is retired and disabled, so except for my little bit of online income we are on a very tight fixed income. 

I currently live in a small city (or large town) in Arkansas, so we have all the amenities of a city, with the small town feel of people who know each other and are very friendly.  The weather, however, is one of the outside influences pulling me down in my life.  There is lots of scenic beauty, but the summers are sweltering and miserable.  Spring is filled with violent thunder storms, hail storms, torrential rains, and straight line winds, along with the occasional tornado.  The winters are cold.  We have probably 2 months of perfect weather in total throughout the year with moderate temperatures, no rain and a bit of sun.  I will tell you more about me tomorrow.  In the meantime, feel free to post and tell me about you.

Join me PLEASE on my personal journey

I am starting this blog as a personal journey of life fulfillment.  I am inviting any and all who want to join and begin their own journey.  Together, I hope we can eliminate the negative, accentuate the positive, adding things that lead us to our ultimate goal, and getting rid of the old habits and routines that have held us back and dragged us down for so long. 

I am 47 years old, and I hear that the forties are the best decade of your life to that point, however, I'm still waiting for that magic forty fairy to konk me on the head before I hit my fifties, which I have heard are truly the best decade in a woman's life.